How does one deal with moving away? No I'm not talking about moving on. The whole deal of going away,leaving familiar land,smells,faces,habits and the so called 'routine'.
Well I have been going through this for some time now, to be precise last 2 months. To go back and explain,yes,finally it is happening. There was that traveller's itch in me which is satisfied. I want that change and it is a happy change. A change of place, life and again the routine. I am no longer alone. I have a wonderful partner,a great place to look forward to and the joy of togetherness that i longed for. Not to mention family life, a home and the security of settling down. And this is what I have been and I'm waiting for.
But right now I'm dealing with transition period.and in a word it is 'mixed feelings' .Yes if you have noticed the pun, thats how I feel ;). I am not one for good byes because I really believe world is a small place. I will not go into marketing telecommunications and internet and the budding technology available which makes even thoughts,habits and future of your friends across miles available right there to you ! So we are connected. Good! And again I'm secure about that part.
So what's eating gilbert grape? Actually it is one of those feelings which can't be pinpointed right now. I just don't know how much of the missing will be post me leaving. There is the lost feeling of 'wish time could stand' but I don't really want that. There is a tiny regret feeling of 'wish I could have seen B'lore better in the last 4 years' but my positive side tells me, a traveller leaves some place undiscovered so that you come back . Brilliant thought.
So should I resign myself to 'don't worry,chill and enjoy the moment'? Yes that's what I'll do. I wouldn't trade this mixed feelings for anything else. Life is short and let us just live for the moment. :)
Well I have been going through this for some time now, to be precise last 2 months. To go back and explain,yes,finally it is happening. There was that traveller's itch in me which is satisfied. I want that change and it is a happy change. A change of place, life and again the routine. I am no longer alone. I have a wonderful partner,a great place to look forward to and the joy of togetherness that i longed for. Not to mention family life, a home and the security of settling down. And this is what I have been and I'm waiting for.
But right now I'm dealing with transition period.and in a word it is 'mixed feelings' .Yes if you have noticed the pun, thats how I feel ;). I am not one for good byes because I really believe world is a small place. I will not go into marketing telecommunications and internet and the budding technology available which makes even thoughts,habits and future of your friends across miles available right there to you ! So we are connected. Good! And again I'm secure about that part.
So what's eating gilbert grape? Actually it is one of those feelings which can't be pinpointed right now. I just don't know how much of the missing will be post me leaving. There is the lost feeling of 'wish time could stand' but I don't really want that. There is a tiny regret feeling of 'wish I could have seen B'lore better in the last 4 years' but my positive side tells me, a traveller leaves some place undiscovered so that you come back . Brilliant thought.
So should I resign myself to 'don't worry,chill and enjoy the moment'? Yes that's what I'll do. I wouldn't trade this mixed feelings for anything else. Life is short and let us just live for the moment. :)
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